Triumphs and trials of the world's oldest living 14-year-old girl.
Monday, April 4, 2011
To Our Love, Send a Dozen White Lilies
Dreams. Been having detailed, extravagant work dreams, where my job is kind of like living on a huge, stressful cruise ship where I can hide easily but still have responsibilities and pressures dogging me at every turn. And elevators. Lots of waiting on elevators, getting on the wrong elevators, not seeing the right buttons, trying to avoid talking to people. I Googled "elevator dreams" and found that they're quite common, but are usually more nightmarish, like with the elevator speeding up uncontrollably and shooting through the top of the building. I think my elevators are just indicators of stress. Also having dreams where I'm arguing with loved ones and searching desperately for people and questioning motives and...it's been exhausting, really.
Food. I lost about six pounds, then gained some back, and at this point have lost about 5.4 pounds total. But it seems like days and days go by where all I want to do is eat crackers and drink wine. Some days it's so easy to stay on track. I need more of those days. Any suggestions?
Music. All I want to listen to lately are 60s and 70s lady folk singers. This past Saturday I pulled out Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds' The Boatman's Call for the first time in about 10 years and now I can't stop listening to it. It's such a deep plunge into the psyche. Just what I need right now.
I have SO MANY elevator dreams!! Mine are more like yours: the elevator never shoots or crashes, but I can't figure out how to use it, or I can't find the buttons, or I can't find the right one, or it won't move, or it goes to the wrong place, or I can't get to it.
I have never had an elevator dream like yours (or, fortunately, like the more nightmarish ones) but they DO sound stressful. Then again, pretty much all of my dreams are stressful to the max. So I suppose that's what MY dreams are for. Stressing me out.
I think it's high time someone started a cracker and wine diet. With brie for protein. I would have no trouble sticking to that one, no siree.
oh, those sounds like scary dreams...I wonder what Mimi would say about it...?
I think you're in that zone where you've gotten rid of the easy weight, and now it may be that grudging time now...I think it could be diet related...but what can you cut now, right?
I have SO MANY elevator dreams!! Mine are more like yours: the elevator never shoots or crashes, but I can't figure out how to use it, or I can't find the buttons, or I can't find the right one, or it won't move, or it goes to the wrong place, or I can't get to it.
ReplyDeleteI have never had an elevator dream like yours (or, fortunately, like the more nightmarish ones) but they DO sound stressful. Then again, pretty much all of my dreams are stressful to the max. So I suppose that's what MY dreams are for. Stressing me out.
ReplyDeleteI think it's high time someone started a cracker and wine diet. With brie for protein. I would have no trouble sticking to that one, no siree.
oh, those sounds like scary dreams...I wonder what Mimi would say about it...?
ReplyDeleteI think you're in that zone where you've gotten rid of the easy weight, and now it may be that grudging time now...I think it could be diet related...but what can you cut now, right?
is it skirt weather??
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